You know, I still find them intimidating. I'm not sure why, or that there's any good reason for it, but something about conventions brings out my social insecurities, and the best I can do is force them down and press on in spite of them. (wry g)
I think -- for me -- I tend to over-plan things, so I have a bunch of things I know I'm going to do before I even step foot in the airport; I'm very happy with one-on-one time, and will often fall into that by default. This makes it much less intimidating in general.
I remember the first couple of conventions were awfully hard on the social insecurity scale for me :/. But at that time, I sort of worried about making a good impression, and I've given up on that because, well, I kind of leave a Michelle impression <wry g>. It offends some people mightily, it amuses some, and it fails to leave any lasting memory on most, which is just fine.
Not worrying about that makes it all a lot less stressful. I worry about things like programming (alternately: will anyone have anything to say, will anyone be bored, will anyone be there or will I have to damp the urge to strangle someone) and less about the things I do on my own, because I have to worry about something; it's genetic <g>.
And then I spend the post-convention period fretting about all the people I desperately wanted to talk to that I didn't even see <wry g>.
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Date: 2004-09-08 09:25 am (UTC)I think -- for me -- I tend to over-plan things, so I have a bunch of things I know I'm going to do before I even step foot in the airport; I'm very happy with one-on-one time, and will often fall into that by default. This makes it much less intimidating in general.
I remember the first couple of conventions were awfully hard on the social insecurity scale for me :/. But at that time, I sort of worried about making a good impression, and I've given up on that because, well, I kind of leave a Michelle impression <wry g>. It offends some people mightily, it amuses some, and it fails to leave any lasting memory on most, which is just fine.
Not worrying about that makes it all a lot less stressful. I worry about things like programming (alternately: will anyone have anything to say, will anyone be bored, will anyone be there or will I have to damp the urge to strangle someone) and less about the things I do on my own, because I have to worry about something; it's genetic <g>.
And then I spend the post-convention period fretting about all the people I desperately wanted to talk to that I didn't even see <wry g>.