I don't so much consciously care what other folks think as have these moments of self-consciousness... but I figure it's one of those things one more or less deals with and through, like the below-the-surface nervousness that goes with public speaking and similar things.
I don't usually care what other people think either -- which is why, in a situation in which I'm supposed to make a good impression, I often freeze, choke on my tongue, or say something Really Stupid. Me and nervous energy are a really bad combination (which is why diginity is not as highly prized in this house as it should be). Oh -- I'm also terrible at talking to anyone from whom I want something. So I'm happy to talk to editors I've never met about their stable, their lines, their opinions, etc., -- but if I want to sell them something? I revert to my inner 12 year old and I cannot think of a thing to say. My brains desert me entirely.
I hate public speaking if I'm supposed to talk about something I have either no knowledge of or no passion about -- but if someone puts me on a panel about which I know something, I'm hard to shut up. Which is what moderators are for <rueful g>.
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Date: 2004-09-08 02:36 pm (UTC)I don't usually care what other people think either -- which is why, in a situation in which I'm supposed to make a good impression, I often freeze, choke on my tongue, or say something Really Stupid. Me and nervous energy are a really bad combination (which is why diginity is not as highly prized in this house as it should be). Oh -- I'm also terrible at talking to anyone from whom I want something. So I'm happy to talk to editors I've never met about their stable, their lines, their opinions, etc., -- but if I want to sell them something? I revert to my inner 12 year old and I cannot think of a thing to say. My brains desert me entirely.
I hate public speaking if I'm supposed to talk about something I have either no knowledge of or no passion about -- but if someone puts me on a panel about which I know something, I'm hard to shut up. Which is what moderators are for <rueful g>.
I've taken to pretending I'm