I think that Mary Anne's journey probably has a viscerality to it that mine lacks; mine is a hindsight journey in many ways. I'm looking back on things, but I don't remember with the same clarity the things that made me nervous or crazy at that time.
I just have a sense that nothing is really over unless you close the door, and that's pretty much what I learned from the experience. That there are things to strive for, and things to let go, and the tricky part is deciding which is which.
I mentioned you because you were making the point to yourself that I think bears making over and over: That we control the words, and everything about them. And not a whole lot about the rest of the process. But controlling the words does count.
(And yes, I read your LJ; I sometimes catch your blog, but I confess I usually sit down and try frantically to read my flist, and everything else falls after. I have RSS feeds linked for many outside blogs, like John Scalzi's Whatever, or tnh's Making Light, or pnh's Electrolite, and I like to read Rivka's Otters (yes, I'm forgetting the actual name, and yes, lazy).
When you're my age (I know, I know, but humour me, my mother gene was activated in 1993), you'll probably do the same thing; the divide between pro and non is just not that great, except in the eyes of the non, if the words & the work are obviously there. I tend to think "only a matter of time" in those cases, because I've been there.
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Date: 2004-10-19 11:44 am (UTC)I just have a sense that nothing is really over unless you close the door, and that's pretty much what I learned from the experience. That there are things to strive for, and things to let go, and the tricky part is deciding which is which.
I mentioned you because you were making the point to yourself that I think bears making over and over: That we control the words, and everything about them. And not a whole lot about the rest of the process. But controlling the words does count.
(And yes, I read your LJ; I sometimes catch your blog, but I confess I usually sit down and try frantically to read my flist, and everything else falls after. I have RSS feeds linked for many outside blogs, like John Scalzi's Whatever, or tnh's Making Light, or pnh's Electrolite, and I like to read Rivka's Otters (yes, I'm forgetting the actual name, and yes, lazy).
When you're my age (I know, I know, but humour me, my mother gene was activated in 1993), you'll probably do the same thing; the divide between pro and non is just not that great, except in the eyes of the non, if the words & the work are obviously there. I tend to think "only a matter of time" in those cases, because I've been there.