And when I should be writing, I read your posts and think about them.
I thought watching my friends go through the entire publishing cycle, the edits, the reviews, sweating sales, etc. had stripped me of most of my delusions. I know I haven't thought that 'good' equated sales for years, not when it came to my own stuff anyway.
Beta readers stripped me of more, both with their comments and people totally blowing off giving me comments. I might love my book and think it's the best thing I've written, but other people? Not so much.
And anything that might be left over and hiding in a corner the rejections I'm getting from editors at publishing houses are killing off. They all say wonderful things about me and the book, and then they say no.
I'm trying to hang onto enough of the delusion that what I write is good and that someone else will love these stories enough to buy them. Right now I'm choosing to call that faith.
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Date: 2009-04-21 10:14 pm (UTC)I thought watching my friends go through the entire publishing cycle, the edits, the reviews, sweating sales, etc. had stripped me of most of my delusions. I know I haven't thought that 'good' equated sales for years, not when it came to my own stuff anyway.
Beta readers stripped me of more, both with their comments and people totally blowing off giving me comments. I might love my book and think it's the best thing I've written, but other people? Not so much.
And anything that might be left over and hiding in a corner the rejections I'm getting from editors at publishing houses are killing off. They all say wonderful things about me and the book, and then they say no.
I'm trying to hang onto enough of the delusion that what I write is good and that someone else will love these stories enough to buy them. Right now I'm choosing to call that faith.