I've been thinking a lot about this as last week I wrote a post that was basically one single desperate cry for help because things got *really* bad and I went past the point where I could cope with it.
And I got help, which brings me to the next step - I am speechless with appreciation for the people who *have* reached out to me, and I want to contact them all and tell them how much I appreciate them - but I am also overwhelmed and releasing tremendous stress and still fighting with feeling like a failure for needing help in the first place, so my reactions aren't proportional to the gratitude and appreciation I _feel_.
We're brought up to help and be helpful. We're not brought up to ask for and accept help.
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Date: 2012-05-23 10:44 pm (UTC)And I got help, which brings me to the next step - I am speechless with appreciation for the people who *have* reached out to me, and I want to contact them all and tell them how much I appreciate them - but I am also overwhelmed and releasing tremendous stress and still fighting with feeling like a failure for needing help in the first place, so my reactions aren't proportional to the gratitude and appreciation I _feel_.
We're brought up to help and be helpful. We're not brought up to ask for and accept help.